Para Draco

Un gran poeta
Como describir a este hombre. Para mi Robi Draco Rosa es un poeta, un artista un dios en la musica. Es un Puertorrique~o que no perdio sus raices. Que las busca. Es una persona llena de pasión. Me apena tanto su situacion medica. Porque? Por que creo que no hay mas personas como el. Su musica traciende el tiempo. El ritmo no tiene limite de oidos. Se manifiesta la pureza de su musica en cualquier persona. No perdona diferencias, nos une como pueblo. No hay diferencias de razas, de generos, de edad. Cuando su musica baila en los valles de mi cerebro siento que me hace volar.
Su musica y letra a bailado a mi lado desde el momento en que su mas fiel fanatica nos lo presento. Ella  como yo, lo admira. No por su fisico, no por dinero, no por fama. Si no por lo que nos ofrece. Esa intimidad, esa pasion, esas ganas de vivir y saboriar las partes hermosas y feas de nuestra identidad. Emite sensualidad, sexualidad, amor, pasion, rencor, odio, perdon, vida, diversion, familia, todas esas cosas que nosotros negamos a sentir por miedo a las ataduras de la sociedad.
Por eso creo que es un gran artista. Por eso lo continuo escuchando, por eso creo que lo escucharemos siempre.

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P3311334, a photo by Neenah Lo on Flickr.

Remembering

P4021364, a photo by Neenah Lo on Flickr.

sad

IM sad cause I have a sucky job. Sad because my future is uncertain. Sad because I want to leave a place but not a person. Sad Because im not in school. Sad cause I cant get into school. Sad because the VA books are not a movie. Sad because I want and need to by shit for my cams and dont have money. Sad cause I have to make decicions. Sad Cause i dont know how to do anything. Im just fucking sad.

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Golden Balls

So...certain things have got me thinking...how do I view trust?

The way I see it is a little different. When a new person comes in to my life, be it a friend or love interest, I give away my whole trust, my heart, mind and soul is there's, my whole trust. And its there responsibility to protect it. To take care of it and not to loose it. For me its not an earning thing. You have it already. If you do things too loose it that is your responsibility. I don't have that whole philosophy of "you have to earn it". I think that is selfish and self centered. Buy just giving it to someone and giving them the right to choose whether they keep it or not is better. I don't know if that opens up the possibility of more heartache but, at least you know you did your best to make things work.

Yeah the title could of inspired something else but whatever!

Who or what is the chupacabra?

Well as the title says, I think I have discovered who and what is the chupacabra. For those of you who have no idea what the chupacabra is Ill give a brief explanation. If it does not satisfy your curious mind, head over to Wikipedia well, that is if the government did not decide to censor that too. But anyway no more delay.

This creature of the night is very famous in the latin world. Its an animal that is accused of killing and draining animals and humans alike, of there blood and life. In Puerto Rico this creature is principal in folk story's. We are told these story's when we are little, and has even been on tv. When a person or animal is found dead with bite marks on its body or drained of blood the chupacabra is blamed. But, this creature has never been captured, has lived many years, has been killing all over Latin america and has existed for many years.

So, today while watching Vampire Diary's, yeah, yeah I know I'm lame, the thing is when the episode was over I went to the bathroom, and my faithful companion Baby (my dog) followed as usual. But he did not enter the bathroom, so I go about my business when suddenly there is Baby looking straight at me and I told him "baby how did you get in here" and BAM the idea struck me, he must be a vampire dog. And then I started thinking, maybe the chupacabras is a vampires best friend. Maybe there is a vampire who did not want to live alone but did not want or trust another vampires company. So he turned a dog.

I mean, think about it. The possibility's of turning a dog is the same as a humans. The difference is that dogs and all animals (lets not think humans are not animals) are driven by there raw emotions. Maybe a dog when hungry is hungry, and mad-mad. And to train a vampire dog must take time and patience double the pain we go through when they are normal. So that would explain why they don't cover there tracks and leave animals laying around. And why the chupacabra is suspected to be all over Latin america cause the vampire owner travels with him. DUH!

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Okay its a crazy theory BUT if vampires where real. That could totally be a possibility don't you think?

http://www.inquisitr.com/125635/chupacabra-sighting-in-texas/

Adventure 1: The circus

So yesterday I went to a Circus. This was a Thursday, and Wednesday I had woken up at 5pm, on the day of the circus I woke up at 6am after working at my favorite place in the world (more about that later). So it can be assumed that I was like the living dead. But I still went. So this is what I learned. We got there and there where protesters in front of the AmwayCenter in Orlando. Because the Ringling Bros, had animals in there show, elephants, dogs, cats, and BIG cats too. I felt kind of horrible because I was once one of those protesters and now I was going to see animals working for a fruit. And I thought, why do we humans feel the need to control everything. Why do we want to feel like we are the only ones who can think and feel. Our need to make everything work for us. And was disgusted by the thought. But wait, we humans do this to our selves too, all the time. Our racism and our neoslavery and neocolonialism is nothing new or different from what we see in the rings. We do exactly the same thing to ourselves. And also, the circus is such a huge part of the american culture and its important too so many people. Especially the people working there, if that is something they love what would it be like to them to be denied to do what they love? About the animals, well I would like to think they treat them with respect or love, but we know how money ruins all the efforts of the the good people.

The second thing I learned is that the circus is not what it used to be. They have to change to keep up with the times but it used to be different. Really I don't know if that's a good thing or not. Its said that the circus was a center of ridicule, because they used to use humans as freaks and exploit them. And animals suffered a lot. But, what im referring to is not that, I mean the show, its more fancy now, we don't sit on cheap benches with the smell of manure inside of a huge red and white tent, eating cheap popcorn and sweating are buts off. Instead we are in fancy seats, with air conditioning looking down to small people twirling and twisting and driving motorcycles. That leaves no place for smaller company's too deliver a good show. Like everything in this world. Everything has to be big and fancy.

I know im rambling, this is nothing of what I planed to write but oh well. But apart from all the negatives that I never fail to point out the circus is awesome, and the talent and dedication that these people have is awesome. I had a great time. And its good that we can enjoy some classic and different events.

4 Things I have learned this year

1. Zelda is dead, there is a time line.
2. Watch what doctors are giving you, pills are not always good for you.
3. Working at a fast food sucks.
4. No matter how many ways you try to look at it, Twilight sucks!

You make me feel...

There is no way to describe it...only songs can explain...(incubus, minnie ripperton, Colbie Caillat) 
 
Stop me on the corner
I swear you hit me like a vision
I, I, I wasn't expecting
But who am I to tell fate where it's supposed to go with it
Don't you blink you might miss it

Oh, this is how it starts, lightning strikes the heart
It goes off like a gun, brighter than the sun
Oh, we could be the stars, falling from the sky
Shining how we want, brighter than the sun

I've never seen it, I found this love, I'm gonna feed it
You better believe, I'm gonna treat it better than anything I've ever had
Cause you're so damn beautiful

You make me happy
You magnify my better half
You make me certain

My past is perilous
But each scar I bear sings
Monuments to where I have been
And melodies to where I am going

Loving you is easy 'cause you're beautiful,
And making love with you is all I wanna do.
Loving you is more then just a dream come true,
And everything that I do, is out of loving you.

No-one else can make me feel the colors that you bring.
Stay with me while we grow old and we will live each day in springtime.
'Cause loving you has made my life so beautiful,
And everyday of my life is filled with loving you.

Loving you, I see your soul come shining through,
And every time that we,
I'm more in love with you.

Should I share the pizza?

Okay. So I have this big pizza. With slices, right. And I want to share this pizza with other people. But, some slices have been taken already. I could say that I gave most of the slices to one person, thinking that some of his slices would be given too me. After seeing that he was not gonna share some pizza with me and that I was giving away all my slices to this person, the party was over. So I had a few slices left, and invited someone else, so whatever was left of this pizza was given to him, and he ate, and ate, and ate and when he was full he left the party. So there are still a few pieces left, but there enough for me to eat and share with my family, and I don't have enough for any other party goers, but I want to share, but that would mean I would be left to starve because everyone else is eating the few slices that are left. But, wait, I met someone who gave me a few slices, and I took them, and added them to my box of pizza, but these are not mine, but at least gave me a little more for me too survive. I was very thankful. But now that there is someone else who wants to be invited to the party has nothing to eat, and I wish and am trying to share pizza with this person but I don't have much left and I'm afraid that if I give him the slices that are left I wont get any back. I'm afraid of giving away whatever is left. I don't want to loose them. But I don't want to loose him. I mean I love this pizza party with him.


YES ITS A METAPHOR 

So annoying but lovable

I'm writing from a different computer. Watching a game, nop, not a sports game, just watching a friend playing Uncharted 2. This game looks pretty awesome. I'm on a couch, comfy as ever with the sweetest person in this world, him and his Cuvanera, what a guy huh? I thought I had to go to work but apparently that was not the case. How I love too be pumped up to work at my favorite fast food restaurant and then be disappointed. You know, working at a fast food is the most rewarding experience ever. I'm joking. But all my friends are working there including my sister. Its amazing. I wanted adventure so here we are. I'm gonna start calling this generation "the boxed generation". So lets analyze this, we eat everything out of boxes, everything is premade and precooked. Nothing is how it used to be. And we are also living boxed lives. Where we only do what we have to and not what we want too. And most of us know this, but cant do anything about it. They say life is a choice but sometimes the choice is made for us. But anyway why am I talking about this. The thing is that today I'm a happy gal, and am willing to enjoy the finer and simpler things in life while I look for those hard to reach pleasures that await me.

Thanksgiving

What I'm thankful for:

All the hard times. My bachelors. My friends. My family. My brain. My camera. My blog. My life. Nature. My dogs. etc etc

Today, or maybe yesterday. Whatever sounds best. Was a wonderful day. Full of surprises. I made a decision that was very random but very wanted. I think I should give myself a chance once more. I got to see my family and spend time with them. I learned that things are not always what we want but there are a lot of things we let pass by because we are so focused on other trivial things. Love is in the air. And not only love of a man, but love of friends and family. Cant wait to see what Christmas has in store for me!

EXACTLY

Christina Perri
ARMS

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go


I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

You put your arms around me and I'm home

My bad decisions

Why is it that when I want to put my foot down, say no to something, the majority of the time I do the exact opposite. Its incredible, that mistake that could sound or seem stupid is pretty damn important. Because it changes everything. All changes after that act. And timing is everything. I don't want to say that because of this the whole thing is ruined but, its pretty obvious it is. And again, I can not expect nothing from the other person, when it was me, and only me who broke my own promise. I set out to do something in a certain way and then messed it all up. The whole relationship will change, and perception of me too. And how do I stop the other person, how do I try to remedy the situation. If there is any remedy at all. Now I feel used and stupid. I could say that well, it was a fun time and that's it. A guilty pleasure. Like any other young person out there. But the whole thing is so different from what I wanted it too be. Or maybe I'm looking for it with the wrong person. But as I'm always saying communication is everything. The only way to salvage whatever is left is to let the other person know. No matter how trivial it might be for them. For me its important. And knowing what they want will help me in knowing what I should do.

Deception

     Deception. Feeling let down. These are feelings that are created by our own expectations. We create these expectations, things we want and hope other people will do or believe because we want them too. Now, this is not always because your selfish, it might be because you truly want something good to come out of that relationship. And let us think of relations of all types, marriages, boyfriend/girlfriend, best friend, customer, etc. Remember, our world is based on relations with all living and nonliving things.
     But as I was saying before. We have to learn not to expect anything from no one. This is hard, and is not an easy task. But if we could learn not to expect things that might never happen we would not go through a lot of heartache. And, how can we do this? Well, first we have too work on our communication on these relationships. To have good communication we must first be sincere with yourself and others. So we have to let the other person know how we feel and what we would like in that relationship. If we see that that is not possible, it is then that we decide to continue or not. Of course, keep in mind if you do, do not expect things that are not going to happen.
     So lets review this. Deception comes from expectations. Expectations can be avoided by having good communication skills, this is achieved with sincerity and clarity.

Like monkeys

SEX.

Is that what love is really about? There is no love in sex. Two separate things. I mean you could have sex and fall in love, but love is not necessary to have sex. And how do you know if its love or not? And do you even want it to be love? Before anything, we should ask our self's this. This whole thing is such a difficult thing. I mean, are you supposed to feel electricity with that person? Are you gonna want more. That does not mean anything. After a few years practicing this delightful exercise, how do you know when its the real thing?

Is it love?

    Three friends. One is heartbroken. The other is afraid to love again. And another has no idea what and why she does the things she does. Lets call the first one A. So A loves a man, breaks up with him cause there is no trust. Is she wrong? The other is B. She has gone through a lot, and being heartbroken again is not in her plans. But how long should you go holding a grudge. And C is crazy. She is split between two. One who is perfect for her and one who is just a mystery. We all know what  that means right? So A, B, C are in a little bit of a pickle and they talk about this everyday, night, evening, when they go out, when they stay home. All the time.
     And this is where the problem is. We are so preoccupied in trying to understand and find love that we are missing on more important and beautiful things in life. Our days pass by us because we are focused on another soul, as if this one was going to give them a new one. There are so many things to live for. Friends, family, your goals, dreams etc. So many days where you could just enjoy the company of so many people and your only concentrated on one. And then comes the question. Is "love" really so important in the humans life. Is it really a stone that gets in the way of other things. Do we really do everything for this? Is it really why we live?

Want to sleep better, write, or be inspired...?

Music calms my thoughts, they turn in to an endless chain, lost in the valleys of dreams, words sleep , while images pop into the sky like balloons. The sounds sooth my worry's and compliment my imaginary. The pen of my voice turns into trees and vines that surround the corridors of my mind. And while the breeze of the calm shuts my eyes I loose myself in the beauty of you. Of me. Of the land of dreams.

(This album is very good, found it in Pandora)

MY GOD IS A WOMAN

     I was thinking again about god. Having a friend who atheist, and who constantly lets us know on Facebook, it got me thinking. Of course everybody has there moments of dispare, that's usually when they start doubting about god. Or you go to collage and start reading and learning and finding things that totally contradict the believes you where raised with. I was raised a catholic. And of course I was active in that community. When I went to collage I was almost an atheist. I don't know if I am. But, ever since I started reading and listening to older folks I have had a theory. I believe in a cycle.
     I think god is our mother, she is our creator. But, not a woman with a long dress sitting in the clouds watching us in our sadness, happiness etc. She is all around us, she is mother nature. She is everywhere we walk, breath, live and die. But, the world, the globe, earth was not created for us. I don't believe we were creatures created by her, and as a gift she gave us earth so we could play, destroy and live off it. We are not that important, we are no more important than the other creatures that surround us. We are part of her, of this god, of mother nature. We are not for her, we are her, and animals and plants are her, there for there us. We are the world, we are nature. We are not better than animals or plants we are part of them and them of us. We are recycled. We live, die and live again in the air ground, fruits. We are part of a cycle. Everything in this world is recycled, everything in nature is used and reused.
     Of course this is the part that we are not getting. For me this is true. And we are gravely affecting this cycle with our ignorance. We are so focused in looking for other explanations that lead us to nothing. When all around us is our answer. We blaim politics, government, science, religion but we don't look at how we are affecting our mother. And the sick thing is that we don't care. We don't realize that we are not the last animals, plants, and not too mention our children will suffer from all this.