You make me feel...

There is no way to describe it...only songs can explain...(incubus, minnie ripperton, Colbie Caillat) 
 
Stop me on the corner
I swear you hit me like a vision
I, I, I wasn't expecting
But who am I to tell fate where it's supposed to go with it
Don't you blink you might miss it

Oh, this is how it starts, lightning strikes the heart
It goes off like a gun, brighter than the sun
Oh, we could be the stars, falling from the sky
Shining how we want, brighter than the sun

I've never seen it, I found this love, I'm gonna feed it
You better believe, I'm gonna treat it better than anything I've ever had
Cause you're so damn beautiful

You make me happy
You magnify my better half
You make me certain

My past is perilous
But each scar I bear sings
Monuments to where I have been
And melodies to where I am going

Loving you is easy 'cause you're beautiful,
And making love with you is all I wanna do.
Loving you is more then just a dream come true,
And everything that I do, is out of loving you.

No-one else can make me feel the colors that you bring.
Stay with me while we grow old and we will live each day in springtime.
'Cause loving you has made my life so beautiful,
And everyday of my life is filled with loving you.

Loving you, I see your soul come shining through,
And every time that we,
I'm more in love with you.

Should I share the pizza?

Okay. So I have this big pizza. With slices, right. And I want to share this pizza with other people. But, some slices have been taken already. I could say that I gave most of the slices to one person, thinking that some of his slices would be given too me. After seeing that he was not gonna share some pizza with me and that I was giving away all my slices to this person, the party was over. So I had a few slices left, and invited someone else, so whatever was left of this pizza was given to him, and he ate, and ate, and ate and when he was full he left the party. So there are still a few pieces left, but there enough for me to eat and share with my family, and I don't have enough for any other party goers, but I want to share, but that would mean I would be left to starve because everyone else is eating the few slices that are left. But, wait, I met someone who gave me a few slices, and I took them, and added them to my box of pizza, but these are not mine, but at least gave me a little more for me too survive. I was very thankful. But now that there is someone else who wants to be invited to the party has nothing to eat, and I wish and am trying to share pizza with this person but I don't have much left and I'm afraid that if I give him the slices that are left I wont get any back. I'm afraid of giving away whatever is left. I don't want to loose them. But I don't want to loose him. I mean I love this pizza party with him.


YES ITS A METAPHOR 

So annoying but lovable

I'm writing from a different computer. Watching a game, nop, not a sports game, just watching a friend playing Uncharted 2. This game looks pretty awesome. I'm on a couch, comfy as ever with the sweetest person in this world, him and his Cuvanera, what a guy huh? I thought I had to go to work but apparently that was not the case. How I love too be pumped up to work at my favorite fast food restaurant and then be disappointed. You know, working at a fast food is the most rewarding experience ever. I'm joking. But all my friends are working there including my sister. Its amazing. I wanted adventure so here we are. I'm gonna start calling this generation "the boxed generation". So lets analyze this, we eat everything out of boxes, everything is premade and precooked. Nothing is how it used to be. And we are also living boxed lives. Where we only do what we have to and not what we want too. And most of us know this, but cant do anything about it. They say life is a choice but sometimes the choice is made for us. But anyway why am I talking about this. The thing is that today I'm a happy gal, and am willing to enjoy the finer and simpler things in life while I look for those hard to reach pleasures that await me.

Thanksgiving

What I'm thankful for:

All the hard times. My bachelors. My friends. My family. My brain. My camera. My blog. My life. Nature. My dogs. etc etc

Today, or maybe yesterday. Whatever sounds best. Was a wonderful day. Full of surprises. I made a decision that was very random but very wanted. I think I should give myself a chance once more. I got to see my family and spend time with them. I learned that things are not always what we want but there are a lot of things we let pass by because we are so focused on other trivial things. Love is in the air. And not only love of a man, but love of friends and family. Cant wait to see what Christmas has in store for me!

EXACTLY

Christina Perri
ARMS

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go


I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

You put your arms around me and I'm home

My bad decisions

Why is it that when I want to put my foot down, say no to something, the majority of the time I do the exact opposite. Its incredible, that mistake that could sound or seem stupid is pretty damn important. Because it changes everything. All changes after that act. And timing is everything. I don't want to say that because of this the whole thing is ruined but, its pretty obvious it is. And again, I can not expect nothing from the other person, when it was me, and only me who broke my own promise. I set out to do something in a certain way and then messed it all up. The whole relationship will change, and perception of me too. And how do I stop the other person, how do I try to remedy the situation. If there is any remedy at all. Now I feel used and stupid. I could say that well, it was a fun time and that's it. A guilty pleasure. Like any other young person out there. But the whole thing is so different from what I wanted it too be. Or maybe I'm looking for it with the wrong person. But as I'm always saying communication is everything. The only way to salvage whatever is left is to let the other person know. No matter how trivial it might be for them. For me its important. And knowing what they want will help me in knowing what I should do.

Deception

     Deception. Feeling let down. These are feelings that are created by our own expectations. We create these expectations, things we want and hope other people will do or believe because we want them too. Now, this is not always because your selfish, it might be because you truly want something good to come out of that relationship. And let us think of relations of all types, marriages, boyfriend/girlfriend, best friend, customer, etc. Remember, our world is based on relations with all living and nonliving things.
     But as I was saying before. We have to learn not to expect anything from no one. This is hard, and is not an easy task. But if we could learn not to expect things that might never happen we would not go through a lot of heartache. And, how can we do this? Well, first we have too work on our communication on these relationships. To have good communication we must first be sincere with yourself and others. So we have to let the other person know how we feel and what we would like in that relationship. If we see that that is not possible, it is then that we decide to continue or not. Of course, keep in mind if you do, do not expect things that are not going to happen.
     So lets review this. Deception comes from expectations. Expectations can be avoided by having good communication skills, this is achieved with sincerity and clarity.